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diaryland: because shrinks are really expensive
I've been kind of depressed lately. I don't know if it shows here or not, but I'm coming out about it now. Major changes in my life need to be made, I feel, and since I'm not sure what the problem is, I'm not sure what changes would fix it. Some of the changes I have contemplated (breaking up with C, moving in with C, moving back to Wisconsin to live with my parents) would almost certainly make things worse. Plus, I'm bad at making changes. Note the following:
So I don't know what to do. Last night I was talking with my best friend from college, and she said I should join the Peace Corps. This is appealing since I would get to live in a part of the world that is not the Midwest (which I have very seldom left), and would actually be making a bit of difference and doing something socially constructive. Her suggestion made me sad, though, because I know I won't even apply for the Peace Corps (much less get in). My friend D*NMN*R pointed out that I dislike travel and am not in the least a people person. This is true--my personality at work runs the gamut from sullen to withdrawn, with occasional forays into the uncharted territory of sarcasm... I have so much armor on that I can barely go to the grocery store, let alone Uzbekistan, and I don't know what to do about it other than take Prozac and write long bitchy entries... Well, enough of that. My goal for this week is to stop complaining at you. I will write happy entries that talk about what I am thankful for. No, really.
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